Watch this video before you read on. (Make sure you click pause on the music box on the very bottom of this blog so you only hear the video music). Enjoy!
Yes, we're pregnant! Yes, we've waited 16 long months for this and we're ecstatic! Yes, I'm already feeling sick, tired, and sore (and loving it by the way!).
However... (ugh, I hate to even have to write this)
We aren't out of the woods yet. Let me back up. I started "feeling" pregnant last week. I took a test on Tuesday (9dpo) and got a very, very, very light line on the pregnancy test. I convinced myself that it was still the medicine from one of the shots that shows up as "pregnant" on a test, so I tried not to get excited. I retested on Wednesday, there was a full line, however it was still very light. But the fact of the matter is, any type of line means pregnant, no matter how dark it is. At this point I started to get excited, and began scheming for how I would tell Matt (see video above if you cheated and did not watch it first like I told you to! Matt was just finishing up his run and I happened to know his route so I was able to surprise him =)
I then got really nervous. What if we miscarry early again? What if the MTHFR isn't under control. So I called my infertility clinic, told them that I had a positive test at home, and that I was worried about another early miscarriage because of PCOS and MTHFR and I was wondering if early blood tests would help the doctors to better understand what would need to be changed IF something happened again like last time (especially because we were headed into IVF after this, and I'm not excited to waste our very last chance and $15,00 + on a miscarriage because I wasn't being treated properly- what I mean by that is that I've done a lot of reading and a lot of people with MTHFR have to go on blood thinner injections to prevent miscarriage).
The doctors agreed with my thinking. They told me to go in the next day for bloodwork to confirm that I was pregnant. I went and got the bloodwork done during my lunch break on Thursday (11dpo). I then called the office after school to get the results. 14. I suddenly felt every bit of fear and anxiety from our first miscarriage rush to my chest. Not again. Please God do not let this happen again. During August when we miscarried my numbers were low, which the nurse said was concerning. The final straw last time was that my numbers quit increasing and doubling, and eventually started to fall, which signaled a miscarriage.
The nurse seemed much calmer than I was. She told me congratulations, and that 14 indicates pregnancy. She said to go back for bloodwork again Saturday, and Monday. Then I would have 3 tests 48 hours apart. She said we want the numbers to at least increase by 60% every 48 hours. So yesterday I got blood drawn, and tomorrow at lunch I will go for another blood test and then wait to hear our Saturday and Monday results sometime Monday afternoon.
I've done a bunch of reading (you're shocked, I know) and there has been a ton of research on what numbers generally lead to successful pregnancies. At 15dpo (which would be tomorrow) results averaging around 59 is a good sign of a strong pregnancy.
So here we sit. Trying to enjoy every minute of being expectant parents, but having a somewhat difficult time with worries for the future. We are worried. We have the right to be I believe.
We've soaked up and enjoyed every second of what we could this weekend knowing that we are pregnant and thanking God for this gift. We've smiled a lot, laughed a lot, and been happy. Now we pray that we can continue enjoying this pregnancy for 8 more months.
I know we will now have people praying for Baby King, and that's why we put this all out there. We need your prayers more than ever. I don't think I can do this all again. I need this baby, we need this baby, we have wanted this baby for far too long. Please keep us in your prayers, we appreciate all of them. (By the way, I am SO sorry to the co-workers that I had to lie to at work this week, I just needed more information on everything before I could share.)