December 30, 2010

Kinley's First Christmas

We took a very low key approach to Christmas this year due to the fact that Kinley is still so young (and I swear EVERYONE is sick this year, and I'm totally THAT mom who is worried about people getting my baby sick!). We did decide that we wanted to attend the Christmas Eve service at our church since we had yet to brave the crowds and go to church. We got Kinley all decked out in her "My 1st Christmas" outfit and matching Christmas bow that Matt had picked out the day that we found out we were having a girl, and we headed off to church.

(You can't see it, but her shirt says "My 1st Christmas")

We definitely had our quietest Christmas ever, but it was absolutely perfect. We spent every minute soaking up our sweet pea and loving her to death! Matt has 11 days off for Christmas so we are still enjoying our time at home together, which is so nice as we are still learning how to function when Kinley and I are home alone together. I can't imagine what next year's Christmas will be like... a crawling/walking little girl might make things a bit different. =)

Here are our very first family Christmas pictures!

We got this bib as a gift and it is SO TRUE!

Kinley with her aunt Keri (my sister)

December 28, 2010

Newborn Pictures

Here are the rest of Kinley's newborn pictures that we took a few weeks ago, enjoy!

Kinley with her late great-grandma Maxine's wedding ring (who she was named after- my Grandpa gave me her wedding ring after she passed away, someday I'll pass it on to Kinley)

December 25, 2010

The best Christmas gift ever...

Merry Christmas!

I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him. So now I give him to the Lord. For his whole life he will be given over to the Lord." 1 Samuel 1:27-28

We feel so thankful for the gift that God gave us this year that it is hard to articulate it in words. We have been beyond blessed this year to welcome Kinley Maxine into our lives. She has brought absoulte joy to our lives. We are constantly in awe of how beautiful and perfect she is...someday I'll get a post written that truly expresses how I feel.

As we celebrate the birth of Christ today and all that that means for us as Christians, it is unimaginable to think of the fact that God sent his only son to die to show us the love that He for each of us. The meaning of this holiday is totally different for us this year as we enjoy our beautiful baby girl...God has blessed us beyond measure this year.

Have a very merry Christmas and take a minute to enjoy your blessings today.

December 23, 2010

0 Months Old

"I am 0 months old!"

Since Kinley is just a few weeks old now I don't have too many stories or specific things to write about yet, but I'll give this monthly post a go anyway.

You have absolutely flipped our lives upside down. We thought we knew what we were getting into, but we had no idea. We love you more than we ever dreamed possible. You are the center of our world and we think about you 24 hours a day. We could not imagine our lives without you, you are so perfect in every way! A few things you have already shown us:

*You MUST have your diaper changed before you will even think about eating.
*You love to make grunting noises while Daddy burps you, it makes us laugh.
*You LOVE baths! You could sit in the bath all night if we would let you.
*Your umbilical cord fell off after 12 days, we think you are going to have an "innie" but we aren't 100% sure yet.
*You are wearing size newborn diapers
*You are wearing newborn size clothes
*You can lift your head for 5-10 seconds at a time and can switch which side you are looking towards
*You can make eye contact and follow moving objects with your eyes
*You sleep best when you are swaddled in the miracle blanket.
*When you aren't in the miracle blanket you sleep with your hands up by your face
*You get hot when you sleep and need to be cooled off in order to get back to sleep just like your mom and dad.
*You do NOT like being stripped down and weighed by the nurses
*You enjoy peeing while mommy is changing your diaper.
*Daddy can put you to sleep quicker than anyone else can.

Thank you for being such an amazing little girl, we love you beyond words!

Mommy & Daddy

Kinley with her stuffed alligator. We are going to take her picture each month with this alligator to see how much she's growing, here's month 0!

December 20, 2010

Kinley's First Bath

I never knew that babies could love bath time, I've only heard my friends talk about how rough bath time can be. I guess Kinley hadn't heard those rumors before because she LOVES baths!

Earlier this fall when we were registering for things we needed I had done some research on bathtubs for babies. I came across a very unique bathtub that had awesome reviews. Instead of filling the tub with water and then the baby sitting in the same water for their entire bath, this bathtub creates a little waterfall and then drains out the bottom as new water comes in the top- it's pretty awesome!

Kinley got a tid bit mad when we tried to sit her up out of the water for a picture- she seriously could have sat in the bath all day!

Matt & Kinley hanging out during Kinley's 1st bath:

" is good"

December 17, 2010

The best birthday present ever- Kinley's birth story

Today is my birthday. It is the first year that I haven't acclaimed this as "my birthday month", and made my family well aware that this is MY month. It just doesn't mean as much this year. As I sit and type our beautiful, precious, amazing little girl is laying quietly asleep across my lap. My whole world is now revolving around this little girl and I couldn't imagine it any other way. It's amazing how a two year battle for something you really want makes you appreciate it so much more once it's finally here. She is everything to Matt and I. She is the only thing on my mind these days. So what if it's my birthday, the only gift I ever wanted is already here, and her name is Kinley.

So in honor of my birthday here is Kinley's birth story:

December 6th, 2010- We headed to our 38 week appointment Monday morning, secretly hoping that I would be 5cm dilated, which wasn’t asking for too much since I was 4 cm dilated at 37 weeks. Anne, one of our midwives, checked me and said that I was definitely 4-5cm dilated, and 90% effaced. I was thrilled! She then went on to strip my membranes, which is basically a really rough exam with the intent of “stirring things up”, something that is meant to give labor a “kick start”, it only works about 30% of the time, and will only start labor if your body is truly ready to go into labor; apparently I was ready.

I left the doctor’s office and headed to the mall to find one last Christmas present and do some walking, which is also supposed to help start labor. I noticed a few mild cramps while walking around, but our midwife had said that I would be crampy for a while, so I tried not to get too hopeful.

Around 4pm I met Matt at the eye doctor’s office to help him pick out some new glasses. On the drive to meet him I had a really strong “cramp”, which I eventually would figure out was a contraction. While we were looking at frames I had another strong “cramp”… this time I told Matt that he should get out his cell phone, to which he had downloaded a contraction counter application, and start timing how far apart they were… “just for fun”. After a quick scolding from Matt for not telling him that I had had a few contractions, he began timing. By the time we got home around 7 that night, I was starting to wonder if this was the real deal, or if the contractions would fade.

We kept timing the contractions even though they were pretty short and pretty far apart. By 8pm we looked through the history of the contractions on Matt’s phone and saw that they were pretty evenly spaced at 5 minutes apart, and lasting about 25 seconds long. I began to feel hopeful that this was really truly the beginning of labor. At this point I was still able to talk, move and overall was able to deal with the contractions just fine.

At about 9:30 Matt asked if I wanted to head to bed to try to rest a bit since we were feeling like this was definitely “it”. By 10pm my contractions had jumped to a minute long and about 2 ½-3 minutes apart. I told Matt that I thought it was time to call the doctor. I was uncomfortable during contractions and had to lay still and be quiet to help calm my body and get through each contraction. I remember telling Matt that I felt silly calling the midwife already since I had only really been in labor about 2 hours, but I just felt like I was already to a point that I needed to go to the hospital. As he talked with the midwife I remember laying there, eyes closed, totally in disbelief that we were going to be meeting our little girl shortly. The midwife told Matt it was time to get to the hospital, and she would meet us there once we were admitted.

We gathered the last few things that we needed and got in the van. The drive went pretty quickly as I sat quietly and endured each contraction, knowing that this really was the real thing, but still worried that we would be sent home from the hospital.

Once we arrived at the hospital it was incredibly surreal walking down the hall. I can’t count the number of movies that I have watched where the pregnant woman in labor lumbers down the hallway to check in- now it was finally me. I was calm enough to talk to the nurses who checked us in, still a bit nervous that they would say my contractions weren’t strong enough to stay.

A nurse took us to a triage room and hooked me up to two monitors, one for my contractions, and one for the baby’s heartbeat. We were told that they would need 20 minutes of data. While being hooked up to the monitors I had to lay flat and still- two things that are hard, and awful to do during contractions. Being on my back felt AWFUL when a contraction would hit. Forty minutes later I told Matt that he needed to find a nurse because I needed to get out of that tiny room and off of my back. The nurses apparently had switched shifts and we got forgotten about in the shuffle of a shift change and an emergency c-section. An hour later, at 11:30pm, we were walked down to our room- we were being admitted!

Once in our room the nurse began doing all of the routine things that she needed to get done, and then asked me to lay on the bed so that she could start an i.v. I had tested positive for group B strep (30-40% of women have it without ever knowing) so I needed to have antibiotics every 4 hours during labor so that the baby would not contract the strep during delivery. She looked and looked for a vein and said she was going to get a colleague, because she didn’t see anything that would work. By this point my contractions were very strong and I was having a hard time lying still on the bed. I desperately wanted to get in the tub and help relieve some of the pain with the warm water. Another nurse began looking for a vein and couldn’t find anything “acceptable” either, so she left to get the lead nurse. The lead nurse poked, prodded, and wiped every inch of both arms with alcohol wipes trying to find a vein that would work. She thought she had one and as the iv began to drip she told the other nurse to turn it off because it wasn’t in my vein. At this point my contractions were nearly unbearable, mostly because Matt and I were not able to use any of the techniques that we had learned in our Bradley birthing classes. Techniques to use while being stuck in a bed with nurses prodding at you wasn’t covered in class. =-)

I suddenly felt the urge to puke and asked Matt for the garbage can. Instead someone put a bed pan thing next to my face and I began to vomit. Three rounds later my stomach felt relieved, but my mind began to wander. We had learned in our classes that vomiting is usually a sign of transition- which means that your body is transitioning into the last stage of labor. I got a bit nervous thinking about the fact that I still hadn’t gotten any antibiotics, nor had we seen our midwife, and I was already in transition. Nearly an hour into the i.v. ordeal and I finally had a working i.v. with antibiotics flowing.

1:00am 12/7/10 – As soon as the i.v. was in I asked to get in the tub. Our nurse quickly went and filled the tub as I tried to get out of bed and walk to the bathroom. Each time I would stand up to head to the bathroom I would quickly fall back on the bed with a contraction. It hurt so badly to stand or walk but I was dead set on getting in the tub, so I did what any woman in labor would do, asked Matt to grab the nurses rolling chair so I could roll to the bathroom. =) The rolling chair was just the trick, I could stop at any point and breathe through the contraction without needing to find a nearby piece of furniture. I got in the tub and felt some relief as each contraction came and went. The water faucet was running next to my head and somehow the running water sound helped calm me as I dealt with the contractions.

About 30 minutes later I suddenly felt the urge to push with each contraction. I asked Matt to tell the nurse that I wanted our midwife to check me because I need to push. She came in and said that our midwife was on her way to the hospital so a nurse was going to check me. I was 9-10cm dilated and ready to meet this baby girl! The nurse told me that it was time to get out of the tub, to the bed, and ready to push.

I desperately wanted to stay in the tub because it was the only thing that was helping with the pain, it was also really the only thing, except for Matt rubbing my back when he could, that we had tried. I finally got out of the tub, back on my wheely chair, and back in bed. The contractions were so strong at this point that I needed to close my eyes to help block out the distractions of the room. My eyes remained closed for the next hour or so until it was time to push.

1:30- Our midwife showed up, apologized for missing so much of my labor, and began prepping for the birth of our babe. (Apparently the nurses were supposed to call her as soon as the i.v. was in so that she could come to the hospital, but with the chaos of getting an i.v. in she wasn’t called until later on). By now I was beginning to lose faith in my abilities to continue on without medication. My contractions were coming less than a minute apart by this point and I remember saying to Matt that I couldn’t do it (which we had also learned in our classes that this meant I was ready to push and that labor was nearly over). I kept my eyes closed and rolled side to side and moaned as the contractions would peak. As Kim, our midwife, finished prepping everything she told me that when I had the urge to push I could go ahead and start to push when I was ready. I sat for a few contractions, not really knowing if I was ready or able to continue on, let alone push. Matt stood by my side and reassured me over and over that I could, and was doing it, that our baby girl was almost here, and that he was so proud of me.
By 1:50am, I decided that I needed to get the baby out if I wanted the pain to be over. As the next few contractions came I began to push, not really sure what I was doing, or if I was doing it correctly, but I did know that I felt “right” and felt better to be pushing than it did to sit through the contractions. So I pushed when I felt like I wanted to, for as long as I could and then rested and waited for the next contraction. A few minutes into my pushing (looking back I wasn’t putting all of my effort into my pushes yet because it hurt so badly when I did push and her head would crown) Kim told Matt to come see the baby’s full head of hair. With my eyes still closed, which they had been since I got back into the bed, I remember hearing Matt say to me that he could see her hair, and that she was going to be here so soon.

By now each and every time I would push, her head would come a bit farther out, causing the most severe burning pain I have ever felt. The “ring of fire” that we had learned about in class was no joke. I began to tear up, and was repeating over and over that I couldn’t do it, it hurt too much to go on. Matt leaned next to me and said I was doing it, and she was almost out so I had to keep going. Kim leaned in close, told me to open my eyes, and then said that she knew it hurt but a few good pushes and it would all be over and I would finally get to meet my baby girl. Kim continued to encourage me and tell me how great I was doing, and reminded me that we had waited 2 years to meet this little girl (Kim was the very first doctor that we had seen almost exactly two years ago when we knew we were having problems conceiving). Hearing her remind me of that gave me a little spark. With the next few contractions I finally gave all of my effort with each push and out came Kinley’s head, quickly followed by her slippery body. I had never felt such relief in my whole life! 2:07am, Kinley Maxine King was welcomed to the world; 6lbs 14 oz, 19 inches long. I felt like I was on top of the world; we had just gone through the most amazing, and challenging experience of our lives. We had accomplished everything that we set out to do, and now we had an amazing prize to show for all of our hard work.

Kim placed Kinley on my chest as I sat speechless, staring at our beautiful little girl. It was such a surreal moment. I had dreamed of this moment for years, having days that I thought I would never get to have this moment, but now we had done it. She was here, quiet, and calm, and all ours. The nurses began to wipe her off and she began to cry, a soft beautiful cry. Kim told us congratulations and that she was absolutely beautiful and then asked if we had a name. I told her it was Kinley… I felt like I had just slipped up on our big secret, it was so bizarre to finally to able to say her name to someone besides Matt.

As Kim began to stitch me up, I later found out that I probably wouldn’t have torn except for the fact that Kinley came out with both hands by her shoulders, we sat and stared at our precious baby, who lay quietly on my chest looking back at Matt and I with her big beautiful eyes. We were both already so in love with our little girl after only a few minutes of meeting her. I remember Matt saying only minutes after laying eyes on her, “She is going to be one spoiled little girl”. I couldn’t have agreed more. I was so in love with her already, I couldn’t have asked for a more amazing experience, or a more beautiful baby.

December 16, 2010

Kinley's Heart Murmur Update

As most of you know we found out earlier this week that Kinley has a heart murmur. Her pediatrician scheduled her for an echocardiogram (ultrasound of Kinley's heart) earlier this morning. I was a bit shocked to find out when we got there that infants usually take 2-3 hours for the procedure and must remain still for the entire time, and if they can't remain still they then get sedated- I about threw up thinking of that. Turns out our tech said if she could get 1 hour of stillness she could get everything she needed. Miss Kinley made it for 1 hour and 5 minutes before waking up (thanks to her amazing Dad who gently stroked her face and got her back to sleep several times), just in time for our tech to get finished up- thank God! I'm 100% sure I would have been a mess had they needed to sedate her.

Anyway- we just got a call from our doctor with some preliminary results. It turns out that Kinley has a muscle ventricular septic defect in her heart. Which basically means that:

A ventricular septal defect (VSD) is a hole between the right and left pumping chambers of the heart.

The heart has four chambers: a right and left upper chamber called an atrium and a right and left lower chamber called a ventricle.

In the normal heart, the right and left chambers are completely separated from each other by a wall of muscle called a septum. The right atrium is separated from the left atrium by the atrial septum and the right ventricle is separated from the left ventricle by the ventricular septum.

Normally there is no hole between the two ventricles, but some infants are born with these holes called ventricular septal defects.

Kinley has a "small" hole between the two ventricles of her heart. We will see the pediatric cardiologist the first week of January to see what the next steps are. Our pediatrician believes that there will not be a need for treatment, but Kinley will likely have to have several echocardiograms to monitor the size of the hole over the next few years. 80% of all VSD's close by age 4 on their own, which is obviously what we are hoping for. Because it is a smaller hole, this shouldn't cause issues with growth, her health, etc. We are thanking God that for now, things should continue to be "normal" for Kinley. Here is a website if you want more info:

Other than this little bump in the road things are going great! I can't imagine my life wihtout this little girl, she is absoultey amazing and has completely stolen our hearts!

December 14, 2010

One week ago... and a sneak peek at Kinley's newborn pictures

Exactly one week ago tonight this is what I looked like:

I had asked Matt to take one last belly picture, I was actually having contractions during this picture... man, it seems like a long time ago!

And this is what we have to enjoy a week later... a precious, beautiful, amazing little girl. Enjoy a sneak peek at her newborn pictures. I'm hoping to get the rest edited and a few more posted in the next few days, but someone (hint hint- aunt Keri) was demanding picture, so here ya go.

It is absolutely amazing to think how much our lives have changed in a week. I don't think I could be more in love with this little girl if I tried. She is amazing. She makes us smile every minute of the day, even at 3am, which is saying a lot for me. =)

I have lots of blogs running through my head about how amazing our baby girl is, and also a whole post on her delivery, but those will have to wait until I have more time to think. =)

On a side note, we could use a few prayers tonight. We had two appointments today for Kinley and both doctors heard a murmur in Kinley's heart. So tomorrow she will have an ultrasound of her heart done to see what we are dealing with. On a good note- Kinley is back to her birth weight today! It usually takes about two weeks, so that is great that she's back to wait in a week! The doctor said that is a really good as far as the murmur goes, because it's not affecting her too much. Anyway, I'll try to keep this updated tomorrow if we learn more.

December 9, 2010

yeah for good news!

Kinley's bilirubin levels dropped this morning to 10.6, just below the level of concern!! We are still waiting to get all of our discharge papers signed then we are out of here!

Can't wait to get home and cuddle up with our little babe!

on our way home!

Kinley is doing awesome and I feel great, so we are excited to be heading home this morning! Kinley had some bloodwork this morning to check her bilirubin levels for jaundice. It was a bit high last night so we are praying its down this morning and no further action is needed. If its not down (and it usually doesn't go down on the 3rd day when being breastfed) then we may have to use a bili-light at home, guess we'll deal if that's the case but of course we'd loive it if her levels were lower.
Other than that we are loving this little girl to death!!! I've never been more in love with Matt either, so life is great right now!
We got some awesome pictures of Kinley wide awake yesterday, I'll get them up soon.

Thanks for all of the well wishes!

December 7, 2010

Kinley's First Pictures

Here are just a few pictures from Kinley's first 12 hours of life. I'll try to get her birth story and some other info up soon, but for now, enjoy the pictures.

2:07am 6lbs 14oz

Our first few minutes together, so in love!

First familiy picture!

Our baby girl!

Kinley Maxine is here!

So excited to announce the arrival of Kinley Maxine King! Born at 2:07am, 6lbs 140z,19 inches long.

It was a quick and intense delivery, but we are loving life right now! More details and pictures to come later.

December 6, 2010

she's on her way!!

5cm dilated, just got admitted to stay until she comes. Excited and nervous!

38 Week Survey

How far along? 38 weeks 1 day

Total weight gain/loss: +0 this week

Sleep: I've slept pretty well this week.

Food cravings: EVERYTHING! I finally had the normal pregnancy binge session where I couldn't get enough to eat for about 24 hours, thank goodness it's back under control now.

Best moment this week: Finding out that I'm 5cm dilated and 90% effaced as of our appointment today!

Movement: Starting to slow down just a tiny bit.

Gender: All girl

Labor Signs: Having some more noticeable contractions, still nothing "labor worthy"

Belly Button in or out? In

What I miss: Nothing.

What I am looking forward to: Going into full blown labor!!!

Weekly Wisdom: Do something as a couple that you won't be able to do for awhile.

Milestones:I'm officially dilated to 5cm and I haven't had any pain to speak of to get that far, yeah for being halfway to 10cm!!!

December 5, 2010

38 Weeks

Your baby could be gaining as much as one full ounce of weight per day now. While she continues to urinate and practice breathing, your baby is also storing meconium (your baby's first bowel movement) in her intestines. Her lungs are continuing to mature and her grasp has become even firmer than before. Your baby is approximately 20 inches long and weighs about 6 1/2 to 7 pounds. Her organs have matured and are ready for life outside the womb.

Wondering what color your baby's eyes will be? You may not be able to tell right away. If she's born with brown eyes, they'll likely stay brown. If she's born with steel gray or dark blue eyes, they may stay gray or blue or turn green, hazel, or brown by the time she's 9 months old. That's because a child's irises (the colored part of the eye) may gain more pigment in the months after she's born, but they usually won't get "lighter" or more blue. (Green, hazel, and brown eyes have more pigment than gray or blue eyes.)

December 1, 2010

Coming to the end...

I feel the days of this pregnancy drawing near an end. I am thrilled beyond words to know that we will be meeting this little girl so soon, but, I have an ache in my heart knowing that it will soon all be over.

I have loved nearly every moment of this pregnancy. I have loved feeling every kick and roll that this baby girl has made. It may sound a little selfish, but I love the fact that I am the only one who has been able to truly connect with her, and care for her up to this point. I will miss her morning kicks and flops telling me that it is time to get up. I will miss watching Matt’s eyes light up as he watches my belly shake from across the room as she goes crazy and does another gymnastics routine.

I am also going to miss all of the stares and glances that strangers give my belly as they pass by and can notice the unmistakable child growing inside my stomach. I love that she is with me 24 hours a day, every day, and that I don’t have to pass her off to anyone or share any of the special moments that only her and I have had together so far.

I think another thought not far from the front of my mind is the worry that this may be my last few days of ever having the awesome experience of carrying a child. I worry that another year or two older, and the possibility of not having any infertility insurance or enough money to pay for treatments on our own, may hamper our ability to be able to conceive again. I realize that we were incredibly blessed to get pregnant this time, and I truly shouldn’t worry about the “next time”, but I do worry. I worry that I will never get to have this inexpressible experience again. I know I may sound nuts, but I truly can’t wait to do this all over again.

So, for the last few days of this pregnancy, I will try my hardest to sit back and enjoy every second of this baby girl that I can, knowing that the end is coming all too soon.