Gone, Now, & Soon

Gone, Now, & Soon

Gone are the days that I can hear a pregnancy announcement and truly be excited.

Gone are the days of openly and freely dreaming about our family.

Gone are the days of attempting to plan when my maternity leave would “work out best”.

Gone are the days of buying cute onesies because they are on clearance.

Gone are the days of peeing on a stick and actually feeling hopeful.

Gone are the days of telling family that we’re pregnant before reaching the 12 week “safe zone”.

Gone are the days of living care free and spontaneous.



Now are the days of figuring out when I will get my next shots, ultrasound, or blood draw.

Now are the days of praying that God will hear our prayers and desires to be able to have a child.

Now are the days of tear filled mornings and nights.

Now are the days of anxiously worrying.

Now are the days of wondering if this one will stick.

Now are the days of feeling helpless, confused, and insecure.




Soon will be the days of joy.

Soon will be the days of unreserved happiness.

Soon will be the days that I will hear a heartbeat(s).

Soon will be the days that I will make Matt a father, my parents grandparents, and my sister an aunt.

Soon will be the days that we will look back on this time with thankfulness that God brought us though it, because we will have our babies in our arms.